A few weeks ago I was back home in Gem for the weekend – yes again, I love my family and my church family and I just can’t stay away! Anyway, this happened to be the weekend that the church was having their deeper life services. The guest speaker was Don Petker. On Sunday morning he asked us a question “what is your that?” Meaning when you get to heaven and you drop the contents of your life in a big pile before God and say “look what I have done with my life”, what is that one thing, the one thing that you tried to hide in the middle of the pile and which He will pull out and say “all of these things are really great but…. I really just wanted this.”
In response to his question my stomach got a little queasy and my mind tumbled back, back to two years ago when I felt a tugging on my heart to serve at a maternity centre in a far off country. I had initially been ready to follow God’s leading. I emailed for an application and got up the courage to tell my parents about this new and unexpected direction.
Then I did nothing.
Except come up with excuses why I couldn’t possibly do such a thing. I had friends, a job, not enough money…and the list went on. Now it seemed that “this” was indeed my “that”. Obviously I had not learned – I tried the excuses route again. “But God, I applied to the midwifery program at Mount Royal University, it would just be much easier if I got accepted there and could stay in Canada to do this training. But God, volunteering in third world countries is for missionary type people. But God, I bought Christmas decorations” (yes I actually tried that). And God said…”But Larissa, you like missionary type work (ahem MDS). But Larissa, what if I don’t want you to stay in Canada to use your skills. But Larissa, Christmas decorations really have nothing to do with anything.”
So I applied.
And…yesterday morning I got the email – my application to volunteer was accepted!
I am still in a bit of shock over the news, but I am also very excited! In the next few weeks I will try to add a bit more information and also try to figure out this blogging thing which is turning into a bit of an adventure for me!